Monday, October 10, 2011
My alarm rings loudly at 5:15 am waking me up in a state of shock. I hastily press the snooze button and close my eyes again, instantly falling asleep. ďDIIIIIIING!Ē A short while after, it rings again. Itís a Monday morning and as I struggle to fight the urge to go back to sleep and forget about everything, I kick off the covers and jump out of my bed. I look outside the window and everything seems so still.
The sky is still dark, with a hint of gray creeping in. The wind coming through my window is chilly but soothing. My body slowly begins to start functioning, but I feel like I have no strength to move. I can see my bed from the corner of my eye as I comb my tangled hair but as inviting as it looks, I turn away. Sleep has still not left my thoughts, but I begin to think about all the benefits of going to school today and how much stronger I need to be. Soon the tired feeling in my legs and the weakness in my eyes have gone away.
Once I am all dressed, I look at myself in the mirror. The sun is now out, and itís rays on the mirror color me in a shade of gold. I see all my imperfections, and insecurity begins to take over. I donít like the image I see in the mirror but I canít do anything to change it, so I brush it off and start to walk out of my house. I put on a fake smile and pretend to act confident- even though I am nowhere near it.
As I enter school I see so many familiar faces, and unfamiliar ones too: a guy with bright blue hair, a girl with inappropriate clothing. As I observe these people I wonder what their story is, or if anyone ever wonders what my story is. I am no longer tired. The day goes by slowly; each tick of the clock seems like a hundred years. The bell that indicates that school is over rings loudly, just like my alarm. Shockingly enough, I am ecstatic for that brief moment.
As I make my way home, the fatigue returns to my body. The sun that seemed so calming in the morning is now bright as ever. The weather makes me feel frustrated and mad because I cannot control the heat. My head begins to hurt. I make my way into my room to begin my homework and my bed looks so inviting, but I look away- I fight the urge. I finish my tasks for the day, and finally lay still in bed. My body slowly stops functioning, and I feel like I have no strength to move. The sky is dark, and everything seems still again. I instantly fall asleep.
And with a blink of an eye, my day is over.